- I FINALLY GOT MY LAPTOP BACK! But my laptop needs some serious defragmenting and cleaning, though.
- After some serious carbo-loading during my Malaysia trip, I’ve been practically cleaning up my body. I’ve been eating more vegetables, and I made a decision to stop eating chips too.
- I planned my first semester schedule already. I have a lot of breaks, but I should use them wisely.
- I should be more creative when it comes to a lot of things. No, seriously.
- Ever since passing out two weeks ago, I’ve sort of abstained from exercising. My only form of “exercise” is going up and down our staircase, and occasionally stepping out of my house to go to the internet cafe or to my friend’s house, which are both walking distances from my house.
- Also, I’ve applied for two marketing internships this summer. I’m also looking for public relations internships, so if you know some, hit me up!
- Org work is keeping me busy this summer. I was elected as one of the officers in my organization this year, and I’ve been helping out with the planning of my org’s activities this school year! It’s not a walk in the park, but it’s going to be worth it. I actually see it as some form of training!
- I MISS MY LAPTOP. :(
I don’t know, but I’ve always had this burning desire to compete with others because I was always compared to my peers. I felt like I wasn’t good enough, or pretty enough that’s why I wanted to compete with others. However, I realized that it’s just going to make me more insecure, and it will not make me become a better person. Instead, I’m going to start competing with myself and do my own thing.
“Be your own person. The kind that doesn’t need social crutches.”
This quote was part of a tweet from one of my best friends, and it struck me quite hard. I am the type of person that sort of goes with the flow of things—- letting myself be overwhelmed by things. Letting others dictate the things that I should be doing, the friends that I should be hanging out with, this and that. It’s as if I don’t take matters into my own hands, and my decisions should please people. In the process, I’ve learned that I should be my own person—- I should stop comparing myself to others, I should start feeling sorry for all the regrets I have made, I should stop doubting and thinking negatively about myself—— and in the process, start doing things on my own terms, and be the best person that I can be. So far, I’ve made decisions that my peers or friends may look down on, but these are the first steps that I’m making in finding out who I truly am, and being my own person.
I should start a weekly photo diary of sorts.
- Hannah Horvath- I don’t know, but I could relate to Hannah. Her struggles with weight, insecurities—— basically almost everything about her.
- Mindy Lahiri- Honestly, I really think that Mindy and Hannah could be each other’s spirit animals. I don’t know, but I think that Mindy and Hannah go through almost the same things, except Mindy’s successful in her field, and Hannah is still struggling with the career path she’s in. Just like Mindy, I want to be successful in the career path that I want to take, which is in the media or the advertising industry.
- Fat Amy- I see Fat Amy as the confident, funny, and smart girl in movies. She’s there to steal the show from everyone, and she doesn’t give a fuck about the naysayers. She’s confident and comfortable in her own skin, which is something that I’ve been struggling with as I was growing up. I think she is, and always will be one of the characters that I am going to look up to for a positive self-image. It’s also a good thing that she’s really, really funny too.
Anyway, who is/are your spirit animals?
Random thoughts about everything———- in bullet points:
- I’m going to visit the National Museum for my FA class next week. Just so you know, I love going to museums and art galleries. Whenever I have free time, I always drop by the Ateneo Art Gallery to check out the awesome artwork out there!
- I have a test in Theology next week. So far, my Theology class has been awesome—— I have an awesome teacher, our discussions in class are pretty mindblowing, but I still need to read the assigned readings for class so I can relate to the test. I guess I should start reading later.
- I got some terrible news last Saturday. My other film camera, which I lovingly refer to as Baby, suddenly died on me. I need to have it fixed as soon as possible. :(
- My dorm space is in complete disarray. I must fix it tomorrow, since I’m free for the rest of the day.
Sometimes, I would like to think that my mind is full of fluff, rainbows and glitter. Or I live in my own little bubble, full of fluffy, senseless things. Or maybe both.
Oo. Pagbigyan ang atat mag-sembreak.
- Hoard all the 35 mm films…in different film speeds. (I’m talking films with 100, 200, and 400 ISO here)
- Take pictures of everything, and everyone.
- Go on a shopping trip to Quiapo and buy a bunch of camera gear. (But yay for kind souls who are willing to lend me their old film cameras)
- Sleep for at least 12 hours everyday.
- Catch up on my reading. (I HAVE TO READ ONE DAY AND ALL THE SAD YOUNG LITERARY MEN ALREADY)
- Have a marathon of my favorite television shows.
- Jog with friends!
Will update this once the semester’s over.
I never liked Total Girl magazine when I was a kid. The magazines that I read when I was a kid were K-Zone and WITCH. And my mom made it a point to buy me WITCH every month, which was something that I looked forward to when I was a kid. Anyway, I don’t buy that much magazines anymore now, but my current favorites are Esquire, Vogue, Vanity Fair, Preview, Newsweek, Time, Nylon and Teen Vogue. And oh, I think I need to buy new magazines already. September’s a big month for magazines, and I think need to get my hands on the latest issues of my favorite magazines.
I am excited for a lot of things. I don’t know, but I easily get excited over things. First, I’m excited for Celeste and Jesse Forever. Aside from the fact that Andy Samberg, Emma Roberts, and Rashida Jones are going to star in the movie, the film looks promising. It’s promising, in a sense that it makes you believe in soul mates, despite the fact that having a soul mate can be quite cheesy and cliche. To some extent, it makes you believe in love all over again, as well as the staying power of friendship. And oh, the film got early positive reviews from Sundance. The movie’s not yet released, but I think the film is going to be really awesome.
Moving on, another thing I’m excited about is my university’s annual org recruitment week. After much deliberation, I finally decided that I’m joining four organizations. I’m going to join the school paper, the advertising organization, my course’s home organization, and my university’s AIESEC branch. I’m finally going to be active with some of the organizations in school, since I practically spent my freshman year adjusting to college life (Adjusting meant conquering basic subjects, and exposing myself to things that may or may not fall into the “college life” category). I also realized that it’s time to be more active in college, not just in extra-curricular activities, but in school and life as well. And I guess joining organizations is a big step in achieving my goal.
The third thing I’m excited (and scared) about is being an adult. When I was a kid, I wanted to be an adult. I wanted to grow up. I actually ditched Nick Jr. and Playhouse Disney for decidedly grown-up things. I tried reading Dorian Gray and all those classic books to come across as mature, and I preferred toying around with my mom’s things. Years later, I’ve come to realize that growing up is not easy, and my notion of being a grown-up was shattered as I was actually growing up. I also realized that growing up actually takes time, and the things that you actually do can either speed up or slow down your journey towards being a mature and responsible grown-up. Although it’s a difficult journey, I think I’m on my way towards growing up. And I think I’m doing good at it, even if I watch episodes of Max and Ruby and read a bunch of children’s books in bookstores. Anyway, I’m turning eighteen in less than two months, and I’m excited and scared about it at the same time. I can finally vote and buy alcohol, and do a bunch of things that adults can do, but at the same time, I’m scared about being an adult, since there are greater responsibilities to be carried out.
- The Avengers was AMAZING. To be honest, to even say that the film was amazing is an understatement. I shall watch it again. Oh Hawkeye, no words can explain my love for you.
- You’re never too old to watch shows on Nick Jr. Max and Ruby is my favorite show on Nick Jr. right now! I just have a soft spot for rabbits, and I honestly think that the show reminds me so much of my relationship with my brother when we were kids!
- Let’s just say that I need to study for Filipino all week, since my midterm exam is on Friday.
- Ever since I saw my dad wearing a pair of sporty sunglasses, my perception of men wearing these types of sunglasses has changed. (Or I just find them unfashionable and unflattering for everyday use? Maybe.)
- The model-off-duty style is still the kind of style that I’m clamoring for, after all these years. Staples: solid-colored t-shirts (I am building a collection of shirts), a nice pair of shorts, hmmmm anything in stripes (?), a nice pair of jeans, and a nice blazer. Throw in some basic footwear too, like ballet flats, and pairs of classic Keds sneakers. But the sad part is, I don’t have the height, and the body of a model. I guess I’ll have to look for possible alternatives to suit my body. Hehe.
- I love One Direction. ‘Nuff said.